The Girl
I'm a bubbly, enthusiastic, passionate, volatile 15 year old girl! I love to act, read, be with my friends, watch movies, listen to music and chat. I've got a split-personality (hence: "volatile") and I switch from light-hearted to intense very easily. I can either be the silent, deep in though, mature type, or the bubbly, bright, kid-at-heart type. I'm a natural leader and I love being the centre of attention!
The Present
eating: crisps drinking: sprite hearing: "May It Be"-Enya seeing: computer screen, Lettice and Lovage scripts, The Goblet of Fire craving: sour skittles thoughts: i *WILL* get an agent... feeling: happy quote: "There's something about the four of us...we're all dreamers...all artists!!!" mood: content clothes: blue roxy t-shirt over a white long-sleeved GAP t-shirt, grey-blue baggy H&M jeans shoes: none
General
Actors: Orlando Bloom, Elijah Wood, Daniel Radcliffe, Ben Affleck Actress: Liv Tyler Songs: "Drowning"-BSB & "Drops of Jupiter"-Train Movies: Fellowship of the Ring, Sleepy Hollow, Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone, 10 Things I Hate About You Chinese Element: Wood Chinese Animal: Tiger Zodiac: Capricorn Flavour: Lemon
8th February 2002
Fuck this, fuck him n fuck EVERYTHIN!!
im pissed off, can ya tel???!! >:| I have absoloutely no idea why, but who gives a toss?
banged my head on the door yesterday and i've still got concussion today! paul's bein proper big headed cuz he reckons he's got "admirers" and i cant stand NE1 rite now.....need 2 punch summet....o, ther u r, my luvely desk!!!! +BANG!, crash!+
newayz. cant b botherd. got a headache. head hurts. tired.
bye
Hhhhhmmm...well, typical. i think i got onii-chan REAL mad wiv me, when i woz tryin 2 apologize 4 sumthin...newayz. Ooooohh, non-uniform day 2day, n that woz funny cuz mr. blair n mr. coker were playin wallee n takin the piss out of us n LOADS of teachers came dressed as us, so that woz funny. O yea...jacy...:D he woz wearin this REAL nice t-shirt n when he moved u culd c his muscles wrippling n stuff...::goes all warm, fuzzy and flushed just at the thought::...and he woz bein extra cocky 2day, but then, so woz i ^^;; n i talked 2 him at the end about my GCSE grade ( ne excuse :p ) n he sez i can get an A*, and i quote:
"if you do, i'll be really pleased. it'll involve a lot of work at home, but if you need any help" ::he grins and looks up into my eyes, bending over and picking up his coat and i nearly collapse from ecstasy:: "you know where I'll be".
::grinz:: i swear, if there's one thing i'll never forget about that skool...it's him and english lessons...:) it's not like i have a crush on him (yea, rite!) its just that he's everything i want my soulmate (yes, im a pure romantic) to be...::smiles:: newayz...im not really in the mood 4 this so i'll go finish renevating my site :P
HEEEEEEEEEYYYY!!!
I got my hair cut. dunno how it'll luk tho. i not goin 2 aikido 2nite cuz i gotta get sum things straight in my hed....:S
gtg, cuz i in deep convo wiv onii-chan...
ayupppp! I'm bak! :D lol. hhhhhhhm. Laura-chan's goin out wiv "Maths" now, so gud on her:) i got 9/15 on a maths mental test so that wasn't very gud. neva mind tho, wasnt the worst in the class n it woz mainly stupid mistakes.
YAY!! my birthday soon!! :D:D cant wait, lol. wot a kid i am, a? :P onii-chan came 2 aikido last nite n i nearly knocked him over wiv my hug at the end of the lesson ^^;;
gtg, cya
YAY!!!!!! im bak online now:) gud init?! lol. Mr Cooper's 4given me now, it seems:D so that's GR8!!!!! lol. im hyper, can ya tell? ;) Onii-chan's m8 Rachel sed, after i chatted 2 onii-chan, rob n her in a bbbbbiiiiigggggg convo, "can u say cute?!" :) lol. im cute. ^_^ ::gets over it half an hour later:: OKAY!!!!! I GONNA PLAY THE FLUTE INSTEAD OF THE SAXOPHONE!!!!!! :D:D lol. Can't wait. i gonna work soooooooo hard so i can b as gud as onii-chan and alex-kun!!!! :) gtg, bored now:p
HHHHHHHEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!
LOL. sorry. im grounded, but only until Thursday nite now,cuz loads of ppl told my mom that it wasnt my fault ^_^ YAY. i got a 45% on my graphics project, n DAWNIE got a 89% bitch. lol. j/k :P
Cya 2morro nite!!!! :D:D
Could I be in *MORE* trouble? I'm fukin toast when my stepdad get's back from work 2nite.
Onii-sama Andy passed his blak belt, n it fukin rocked :D I didn't say it, but i reckoned it was the best blak belt grading all year. Hope Gary n Adam dont read this ^^0
Got *1* foto of the grading cuz the wind on was 2 loud n i dint dare disturb Onii-sama, lol. Buuuuuuuttt, i got LOADS of every1 at the party afterwards. Adam, Gary and Onii-sama got a bottle of champagne each ::licks lips:: n were passing them around every1. I managed 2 spill onii-sama's down me, lol. That was funny. I had 2 hold bak congratulating Onii-sama 4 about 4 hours, lol, cuz his g/f was there n i dint wanna do nethin 2 stop her from liking me cuz she's the coolest, and i dint wanna make Onii-sama or her uncomfortable. But that woz okay, cuz i gave him 2 bigggggggg hugz l8r. God, I hope my stepdad and my mom dont read this but i did drink, despite wut i told them, n it was 1 of the best parties eva. We were watchin the grading from monday and onii-sama's, then a home movie of Sensei's, lol. That woz funny. N we were blasting out Linkin Park as loud as the speakers wuld go. I woz 1 of the last 2 leave ::looks guilty:: soz, mom. Sensei and Mark walked home wiv me, cuz i dint fancy walkin home at 2 in the morning, while bein fairly pissed.
LMAO!!!!! My mom asked me when i got in if i had been drinkin, n i goez "no, only a swig of champagne cuz u dont get that much" n this morning she asked again n i said the same, then she went "oh rite. u dint luk like u had". LOL. Newayz. I'm grounded n not gettin no muney. Mind u, i got sum left over from last nite ;)
HHHHHHHhhhhhhmmmmmmm...I betta warn the others not 2 say ote about me last nite, cuz otherwize im gonna b in even deeper shit, arent i?
Oh well. Cyaz
"If you can't drink and drive, then why do pubs have parking lots?"
Okay. My dad took half a day off work just 2 "be with you". That's 2 weird. We had the house 2 ourselves and when we sat down 4 lunch, it was so weird and familiar. I remember how he used 2 be, b4 when we culd have a convo without shouting at each other. It's like the other week when i had a bad bak and flu, i was so stressed n frustrated i just broke down and cried in front of him, but he just stood there. I was so...so...i don't know. For the first time in ages we talked properly and it was like...I hadn't seen him for ages, and we were just catching up or something. It hit me really hard on way 2 my mom's, when i was on the bus, and i had 2 blink really fast 2 stop from crying...
And how can it be, that happiness is a sentence away, but i can't bring myself to say it? One sentence. That one sentence is worth my happiness and love. So weird...
Ugh. I got a bad headache ::cries::
I went 2 c American Pie 2 wiv Onii-chan and Alex-kun 2day!! It woz alrite, but not as gud as the first one. I'd neva seen Onii-chan irl b4, so that woz a bit weird...lol.
We went 2 mcdonalds n sat around takin the piss out of ne1 we felt like, 4 about an hour, then walked around town. It woz well funny cuz Onii-chan was running around lukin in Wedding shops n we had 2 drag him away. I dun get y he wants 2 marry lisa when theyre alwayz fightin, but he says he loves her neway, so
::shrugs::. n i not that experienced wiv it::grits teeth n fights bak tears::
Hhhhhhhm. I dun get that lad from skool...one minute he's all flirting n givin me signals, the next he's takin' the piss. Well, i shun't care bout wut he thinks ne more. Cuz i gotta get my priorities in place...rite? I mean, how can i call myself "in lurvvve" if im still chasin' afta nearly every lad i c? Rite, Onii-chan, lol? He reckons im chasing afta every lad i meet :p
Onii-sama Andy's blak belt grading's been pushed back till Thursday cuz Sensei Ken's away in Ireland. That's all gud 4 me tho, cuz it means i can go 2 that sleepover 2moz, init?
Newayz. No1's online n my dorky lil bro wants 2 go online, n my dad's takin his side, so im gonna go.
"First love always ends in heartache"
Hhm. This sucks. I've had a buzz of desire to madly exercise all day, but now, when it's time to leave for Aikido class, I totally feel wiped out.
Woke up at about midday-the joys of the holidays ^_^-n went 2 town wiv Tom (my step bro). He, surprisingly, let me provide a "wut's hot n wut's not" outlook on the coats he was lukin at getting. In the end he bagged a dark blue 1 by Pod. Alrite, if i do say so myself.
Bumped in2 Adam! ^_^ y is it that he's always the 1 i c around town? Don't ne of the others work around there or sumthin? Weird. N he's got a new job or sumthin, so that's alrite 4 him, init?
*sigh* and, again, the question comes to mind "why?". Why did I decide to give up on J.J-chan? *WHY* did I let the 1 oppurtunity i had 2 let him kno how i felt, slip?! WHY DID I LEAVE IT UNTIL I WAS TOO LATE?!!!!?!?!!?!
*ahem* sorry, lettin sum steam out...and still, the question stands. Was i 2 cowardly? or was it more 2 do with self doubt? Hhhm. Put a martial arts suit on me, give me a dojo and a martial art 2 study, and sure! I'm a natural. But when it comes to martial arts being more than the movement and the initial art and god, do i suck.
::Pulls a face:::
I think that'd betta b it 4 2nite, cuz otherwise im gonna set myself up 4 a sleepless nite of hearling abuse at myself and beating myself up inside...
Hopefully next time ya c me, i'll b more optimistic about the future...
Ja
"Happiness is there for us. It's just finding it that makes life worthwhile..."
GR8, just bloody gr8!! Onii-chan was asking me if I was alright, cos of Jo, and I said "it's sumthin only me and 1 other person need 2 worry about it, so...just, dont". I dint mean it 2 sound horrible!! But he's totally pissed at me now n wont talk 2 me, so...:(
Laura-chan helped me out wiv the horrible HTML and managed 2 get rid of that nasty teal colour, so, YAY!! The page luks good now!! :D:D Arigato, Laura-chan! She's gonna help me finish it now, so I gtg!
Ja matta ne,
Divine_ninja
